Progress

Hello World! 

It is hard to believe that it has been almost six whole months since I swallowed my pride and accepted the fact that I needed help for my anxiety. So much has changed in the last six months and I am so proud of myself for the insane amount of progress I have made. I feel like I can finally live again and not be controlled by constant worry, paranoia, or the  defensiveness that accompany anxiety. The people that I surround myself with now are positive and loving and that has made my journey a lot easier for me. Looking back at how certain events and friendships played out I feel like if I had figured out the anxiety situation sooner, then some of those events would have ended differently. That is life for you though! Can’t change the past but you can take control of your future! 

I guess I wanted to share this because I want y’all to know that it is ok to accept that you need help. Trust me, I was horrified at the thought of taking medication because I was afraid that I would lose my creativity. I know that is a silly fear but for me writing is everything, so the thought of losing the ability to create my literary worlds was terrifying. I realized after taking my medication that it does the opposite. By correcting the imbalance that caused my anxiety, I have been able to create, write, and adventure more because I am not shackled by my constant fear. All this progress would not have been possible if I did not decide that it was time to go see a doctor.

Six months and one medicine adjustment later and I can tell you that I defeated my anxiety dragon! Anxiety will always be a part of my life but I will no longer let it define me!
I hope y’all enjoyed my little update and I hope y’all have a wonderfully literary day!

~Caitlin~

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Ending A Chapter

Hello World! 

   Yesterday, I had to make an important decision and end a friendship that had become toxic. The friendship I had to end was with my writing partner so the novel we worked on together will never be complete. I honestly wanted the friendship to work, but it had just become extremely unhealthy and there were so many other factors that made that friendship as bad as it was at the end. It sucks that it had to happen but at this point my mental health was more important than the friendship. Toxic friendships are the worst! You want it to work so badly but all it is actually doing is making you cry all the time while also  feeling like there is a weight constantly pressing against your chest  . As soon as  I ended it I felt like I could finally breathe again. It is a  bittersweet feeling because a cool friendship had to end but I honestly had to do what was best for me.

   I guess the message of this post is that it is okay to walk away. If you are in a friendship or relationship with someone and it is constantly bringing you down, then it is time to let go. No one is worth the unnecessary tears and stress. If it were healthy and they honestly cared then you wouldn’t be feeling the extreme amount of  negativity everytime you are around them. It may be hard at first but in the end you have to do what is best for you and let them go. Only then can you set yourself free and allow more positivity to flow into your life and writing.
Until Next Time Everyone!

~Caitlin